Tomorrow is a pretty interesting day for the Lobos boy. The MPC Baseball has a scout day. Now, I know I do not fully understand baseball and all of the politics involved, but all I know is scouts mean opportunities. Opportunities means my best friend and boyfriend could get seen by someone who could make a difference in his future of playing baseball. A year ago the talk of major leagues I don’t think was taken seriously in my boyfriends eyes, of course he always thought it would be cool, but baseball was more of a sport he played and hoped to play throughout college. But last season, when his coach told him that maybe he could get seen by some pretty cool colleges and maybe even start his path to majors, he decided to work hard and try his best to become the amazing pitcher that he is today.
Now, like I said I really know nothing about baseball. I love watching it, but really only because of him. So of course in my eyes.. he is the best! I am am really excited for him to get seen tomorrow, but with that being said… I still think in a selfish manner. What if his dream takes him away from me? When it comes down to it, what I want doesn’t really matter, his future is his future, but it’s been a long long time since I have found a guy I consider my best friend more then my boyfriend. He is the first guy that when something goes wrong, the first thing in my mind isn’t ‘wow this won’t work out’, but ‘I really love him’. He says all the time that he wants to be with me forever. But he tends to not think before he speaks. At this point in my life, I would be completely content if I was told tomorrow I was stuck with him forever, because there truly isn’t anyone that I have meet thus far who could put up with me as well as he does. Nor is there someone who I can tolerate spending so much time with, guy or girl. I have best friends, who I have been neglecting to the full recently, but even if we were to spend the week+ my man and I spent in Palm Springs together, or as many evening that we spend together, I may kill them! My boo and I have both agreed that somehow, someway, we are able to not get sick of one another. Even when we feel that we are at that point we just roll over, say good night and wake up the next day ready to be together.
Well, the purpose of this ramble is to express my stupidity and fears that tomorrow brings. Even though it is only scout day, and it truly at this point in the year has no affect on our relationship, it still makes me think of the future. This makes me evaluate the importance, appreciation and love I truly do have for my man, for my best friend. And I just need to hold onto and enjoy the time we do have together, because we never know where his future… or mine… could take us.
(123) Missy Megan 